AM I A CHRISTIAN?

I am a Christian. At least that is what I answer if you ask me what religion I am, because after all it is just a religion and as long as you don’t push your religion on me I won’t push my religion on you. I am a Christian. I gave my heart to Christ so long ago that I don’t remember the date. I believe that Christ died for my sins, so it’s okay if I sin a little bit every now and then, after all “we all have to sin a little bit everyday”, right? I am a Christian, and I will proudly tell you that any Sunday morning on my way to church, as long as it’s not football season. I am a Christian, and it’s okay if I drink a little or smoke a little every now and then, after all “I’m only human”, right? I am a Christian, I can quote you over a hundred Bible versus by memory and recite the books from beginning to end, but don’t ask me what they mean, because I really don’t know. Don’t ask me where it says that as a child of God I am free from sin, I don’t have to be sick and I don’t have to be poor, because I don’t know where it is, and since I don’t know where it is in the Bible it’s probably not true. I mean come on, its God’s word, “how do I know what it all means”? I am a Christian and I’ll tell you that as we go out to dance at the clubs, “I wonder if I’ll meet any Christian people while I’m here?” I am a Christian, but I have no clue what God’s will is for me, even though he says in his word that he “wishes above all that I [as his child] would prosper and have perfect health”. I am a Christian, and I will tell you this as I explain to you that me getting cancer is part of “God’s will”, even though I just finish telling you that I don’t know what God’s will is. I will tell you that it must be God’s will that I didn’t get the job, can’t support the children God blessed me with and don’t have the desires of my heart, because that’s the kind of God I serve, right? I will tell you that it must be God’s will for me to be sick, poor, oppressed, depressed and full of fear, all the while saying that “nobody knows what God’s will truly is”. As a matter of fact, as a Christian, I will blame God for so many things that happen in my life and I will tell you that they are all part of God’s will for me and yet I will continue to tell you that “I don’t know what God’s will is”. I am a Christian, and I will continue to say “nobody knows God’s will”, but I will continue to read my horoscope, go to fortune tellers and have my palm read in hopes to find out the future that I’ve already confessed God won’t tell me. I am a Christian. I don’t have time to read the Bible, I can’t find time to seek God in prayer and I’ll be lucky if I go to church once a month. But invite me to a movie, a party, or sport’s event and suddenly my schedule clears up. I don’t have money to pay my tithes and offerings, but I can buy a pack of cigarettes everyday, a quart of liquor, and I can find a way to go clubbing, a bar and a movie, all in the same weekend. And yet I will continue to wonder why I am sick or poor or depressed or oppressed or full of fear. Now don’t tell me I’m wrong for doing what I do, after all it’s my walk with God and you can’t judge me, even though the Bible says we should use God’s word to hold each other accountable, so that we can stand before God perfect. I mean come one now, after all we are nothing more than sinners saved by grace right? Even if the Bible says that we are “brand new creatures and everything we did in the past is done away with”. I know what I’m doing; after all I am a Christian.

Am I a Christian?

Or is it possible that every where I use the word “Christian” here, I could be using the word HYPOCRITE???

I know thy works, that thou art neither cold nor hot: I would thou wert cold or hot. So then because thou art lukewarm, and neither cold nor hot, I will spue thee out of my mouth.
(REVELATIONS 3:15-16)